Let me start by saying, I think I been being a bit of a pessimist. I have been concentrating on the negative and have not allowed the positive things to come through.
I am going to practice a little bit more positive affirmations.
My life IS wonderful.
I AM very blessed!!!
I DO have an amazing fiance!!!
I say these things because they are TRUE!!!
I realize by constantly harping on the negative things I have been allowing them to them to take over my life.
Surely this is what Satan wants me to do. He wants me to only see through his goggles! He wants me to see the bad things so i will make bad choices and do more bad things!!
Well I'm done with that!
When I concentrate on the Lord and make a conscious effort to be mindful of the things that come out of my mouth and be mindful of the thoughts that run through my head, I emit only good things.
The power of positive thinking!!!
Things are really crazy for me right now and i have not had a chance to make any updates about my last dare, but i will get to it as soon as possible!
The wedding is next weekend so if you may not hear from me till after we get back from the honeymoon! I still have a lot of things to get done this weekend and people start getting into town next week!
Im soooooo EXCITED!!!!
XOXOXOX-KIM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
Rabble rabble rabble
Hey!
I have been pretty slack with my blog and with my book.
I have not completed the last dare.
Most of it i can blame on the wedding coming up in two weeks and all the homework i am trying to get done before hand.
Really, I'm writing just to write.
I have missed it.
So i think I'm going to just ramble to get it out.
Lately me and Jason have been fighting A LOT.
Its really stressing me out.
I started driving my brother's car and i thought that was going to help, since before that we had to go everywhere together.
It helped at first, but now its back to fighting.
It makes me wonder if me not reading my book and making the efforts i was is effecting things.
I'm not as positive as i was.
Mostly I'm stressed over everything.
I'm scared i wont finish everything in time for the wedding, I'm scared that the wedding wont be what i have planned it to be. I'm scared we will fight on our wedding day. I'm scared of getting married while we are doing all this fighting.
I'm scared of failure.
I wonder are these normal feelings that everyone feels before they get married?
I have been praying and praying on it but I feel like I have not gotten an answer.
and even that scares me!
Oh and to top all of it off, Jason saw me in my wedding dress.
He had been at the gym and I didn't know what time he was coming home. I was in the living room, having it penned at the bottom so it could be hemmed up and he walked in and walked right back out.
I know its silly, but i wonder is that a sign?
I'm probably being too superstitious about it, but after everyone left, I cried.
Then i felt stupid, but i couldn't help it.
He's not supposed to see me until the wedding day, so that when i come down the isle i take his breath away. I feel like that moment will not be there anymore.
Maybe I'm being silly and looking for a fairy tale that doesn't exist. but every girl still dreams about it.
Well i have rambled enough.
I will continue to pray and hope God has a plan for me that i just cant see yet.
until next time
Kim
I have been pretty slack with my blog and with my book.
I have not completed the last dare.
Most of it i can blame on the wedding coming up in two weeks and all the homework i am trying to get done before hand.
Really, I'm writing just to write.
I have missed it.
So i think I'm going to just ramble to get it out.
Lately me and Jason have been fighting A LOT.
Its really stressing me out.
I started driving my brother's car and i thought that was going to help, since before that we had to go everywhere together.
It helped at first, but now its back to fighting.
It makes me wonder if me not reading my book and making the efforts i was is effecting things.
I'm not as positive as i was.
Mostly I'm stressed over everything.
I'm scared i wont finish everything in time for the wedding, I'm scared that the wedding wont be what i have planned it to be. I'm scared we will fight on our wedding day. I'm scared of getting married while we are doing all this fighting.
I'm scared of failure.
I wonder are these normal feelings that everyone feels before they get married?
I have been praying and praying on it but I feel like I have not gotten an answer.
and even that scares me!
Oh and to top all of it off, Jason saw me in my wedding dress.
He had been at the gym and I didn't know what time he was coming home. I was in the living room, having it penned at the bottom so it could be hemmed up and he walked in and walked right back out.
I know its silly, but i wonder is that a sign?
I'm probably being too superstitious about it, but after everyone left, I cried.
Then i felt stupid, but i couldn't help it.
He's not supposed to see me until the wedding day, so that when i come down the isle i take his breath away. I feel like that moment will not be there anymore.
Maybe I'm being silly and looking for a fairy tale that doesn't exist. but every girl still dreams about it.
Well i have rambled enough.
I will continue to pray and hope God has a plan for me that i just cant see yet.
until next time
Kim
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