Surprise! I have completely changed my mind again. I was at Taylor’s soccer game yesterday talking to Jason and my mom about everything that’s going on and after talking with them I have decided I want to try to have another baby. Both my mom and Jason are SOOOOOOOO very supportive of me and they agree with whatever I decide to do. I feel like if I don’t TRY I will regret it forever. This new decision doesn’t mean for sure I'm going to be able to have another baby but if I have the choice that’s what I want and then I will have the hysterectomy immediately after.
First I have to get the results back from the biopsy I had done the other day. That’s probably the biggest thing I’m waiting on right now. If it doesn’t come back as cancer then I think I'm going to skip the Cone since it increases my chances of having a preterm delivery so much. I took my last shot of Depo in November so it won’t be till February that I’m off of that.
I already decided I would not be taking the Depo anymore anyway. I’m really excited to get off of it. I have been on it since I had Taylor and in January that will be 10 years!!!! I can’t believe my baby is so big!!! But the bonus is she will be a HUGE help with a new baby.
I think we will set a time limit on how long to try for. Like I said before they don’t want me to wait any longer than 5 years to have the hysterectomy. I think once I come off the Depo in Feb we will try for exactly one year. If nothing happens in that year then I will have the hysterectomy done. From what they tell me this isn’t something I want to wait around on and I still have to talk to them and tell them this is what I want to do...we'll see...
I feel like I have to try and then if it doesn’t happen then that’s God's way of taking it out of my hands. I have been on the fence about this for so long I’m really excited that a decision will be made one way or another.
I feel like he knows what’s best for me so I fully accept whatever that is.
These are a lot of if's.....if the biopsies come back ok.....if I am even able to get pregnant... if its cancer....if if if.....
So I can decide on something today and then have to change it tomorrow.....
Either way I’m ready for whatever comes my way ;-)
First I have to get the results back from the biopsy I had done the other day. That’s probably the biggest thing I’m waiting on right now. If it doesn’t come back as cancer then I think I'm going to skip the Cone since it increases my chances of having a preterm delivery so much. I took my last shot of Depo in November so it won’t be till February that I’m off of that.
I already decided I would not be taking the Depo anymore anyway. I’m really excited to get off of it. I have been on it since I had Taylor and in January that will be 10 years!!!! I can’t believe my baby is so big!!! But the bonus is she will be a HUGE help with a new baby.
I think we will set a time limit on how long to try for. Like I said before they don’t want me to wait any longer than 5 years to have the hysterectomy. I think once I come off the Depo in Feb we will try for exactly one year. If nothing happens in that year then I will have the hysterectomy done. From what they tell me this isn’t something I want to wait around on and I still have to talk to them and tell them this is what I want to do...we'll see...
I feel like I have to try and then if it doesn’t happen then that’s God's way of taking it out of my hands. I have been on the fence about this for so long I’m really excited that a decision will be made one way or another.
I feel like he knows what’s best for me so I fully accept whatever that is.
These are a lot of if's.....if the biopsies come back ok.....if I am even able to get pregnant... if its cancer....if if if.....
So I can decide on something today and then have to change it tomorrow.....
Either way I’m ready for whatever comes my way ;-)
keep us posted.. good to know you aren't stressing over one thing or another.. as far as the hysterectomy... what are the side effects of that going to be, do you have to be on some kind of hormonal stuff afterwards for along time since you are so young?
ReplyDeleteThey havent metioned any of that yet.. but i will be sure to ask them all kinds of questions before i have it done because those are some BIG concerns i have...altho i think they said they will or can leave the ovaries. I dunno, im trying to research it so i know all of my options.
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